OKay…so maybe I’m being a little bit of a drama queen, but in the history of Intersessions this one, well, it wasn’t one of the better ones. I’ve been locked up in the library cramming for my MCATs.
Oh good gracious it’s coming.
January 31st is the day my life officially ends. oh me oh my.
I’m actually at a loss of words for this blog. I think i’ve spent all my words on writing samples and relearning orgo, physics, bio, and chemistry.
Jess and I spent some quality bonding time on C level of the library and I think that I might be developing a vitamin D deficiency from being indoors so much…otherwise I’m great!
This is good though! I mean, in a slightly masochistic kind of way. Yes, I’m miserable, and yes, I’m an abysmal abysmal standardized test taker. But going through this process: studying and trying to deal with the stress that comes with the fact that this test is pretty darn important in the grand scheme of my medical school application, I think I’m finally sure that medicine is absolutely what I want to do with the rest of my life.
I’ve always hated testing, and one of the things that bothers me the most is when people ask about your scores or grades on anything. But that’s me on a soap box…anyway I’m not giving up. I’m just going to keep preparing and doing my thing and do my best.
And you know what? if it doesn’t go well, it’s not the end of the world. No standardized test is the end of the world, I don’t care what admissions counselors or college confidential says. If my sitting goes poorly this Saturday, I’m just going to collect myself and find a way to take the test again in a couple months. Not that I want to do bad or that I’m justifying a terrible score…but everyone has off days and I just hope this Saturday isn’t one of mine.
I don’t think I’ve ever wanted anything as badly as I want to get into medical school. I want to be like the doctors at the clinic I volunteer at. I love people and hate being sick…I want to be someone’s doctor who they trust with their health, that’s a huge amount of trust, but I want to be there for my patients. I I hope that every pre-med goes through this same…I guess you’d call it soul searching…before the MCAT.
Word to the wise: you’ll never make it through the pre-med process if you don’t really want it. It’s so easy to give up and switch majors or find another career and path that don’t include the medicinal hoops, but to stick with it? To get through the orgos and the MCATs and the applications and the waiting…it’s not easy, but having a clear purpose has probably been the only thing that got me through the last couple of weeks.
So on that note I’m heading back to the library!
Sorry no pictures…I took one of Jess on C level but my phone won’t bluetooth it to my computer. Jess, I hope you’re being fun outside of the library now that classes have started!!